I often find myself thinking about the things in my life that have changed over the past several years. Especially since graduation is approaching just around the corner, I find myself reflecting on my highschool experiences and memories on a daily basis.
I miss the good ol bishop days. Stress from school was kept to a minimum for me and there wasnʻt nearly as much drama between my friends as there is today in highschool. Some of my closest friends in bishop have become completely different people today in highschool. I no longer have someone that I can call my best friend. Remember asian avenue and xanga? Remember the courtyard and all of the hilarious after school memories that we all shared there? Remember study halls and blcʻs? Even though at the time I didnʻt like having those, I sure miss them because I could really use study hall time in my scheudle right now so that I am forced to do some homework. Back in the bishop days I donʻt remember being stressed out or unhappy. I remember being really happy and carefree. If there was a way to go back in time, I would definitely go back to 7th and 8th grade so that I could re-live all of those great memories again.
If I could re-live my highschool years I would definitely do many things different. I wish I could say I have no regrets. But unfortunately, I do. If I could take this regret back, I truly believe that my entire highschool experience would be different. If I hadnʻt made the bad decision that I did, I believe that my highschool experience would have been soooo much better and I would have enjoyed it much more. But nothing is going to take back what I did and I wish I could fix everything. I thought everything was fixed last year but apparently it isnʻt because the results have carried onto this year. This is probably really hard to understand because no one knows about my regret. But there are probably some people out there who have made mistakes in their lives and have had to live with the consequences like I have. I wish I could say that I had a great last year in highschool, but to be honest I havenʻt. I swear Iʻm not usually this unhappy, but now Iʻm becoming more sentimental with graduation and college coming up fast.
I hope some people can relate. =/
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yeah i totally can relate to your blog. I remember those good old days when grades didn't really count. I'm having a tough year as well, but I hope everything turns out for the best. You still have two months to turn things around. It's the last impression that really counts.
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